This is to the One

To the one who I have failed. I’m sorry that I wasn’t there or that I may have pushed you away. I probably said that I would always be there but we both know that it wasn’t true. We grew apart somehow and I can’t make up for any of it, I can’t make up for missed times or even disappointing you. It’s so cliche when people say, “I wish I could take it all back and do things differently,” because in reality, I’m pretty sure every single one of us would do the exact same thing in life if we were given a second opportunity. For that, I am sorry. 

I just ask that as you read this, that you don’t focus on all the times I have failed you, that you don’t focus on the moments I have left you hanging, that you don’t focus on the moments where I made time for others but not for you. My intention was not to harm you in any way. I want to show you my love and that I can be there for you but it’s impossible. I am sorry. 

In Psalm 118:8 it says, “It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in people,” and I’m the perfect example of that people. Not that I’m unfaithful or not loyal, but I do fail. I want to promise so much to you, but I’m not God and sometimes I can’t keep those promises. I am sorry. You need to know that you shouldn’t put your full trust in me, instead just look to God. He is the one that will take everything into His hands and take care of every single one of your needs. Forgive me for failing you, forgive me for not being there, I can’t promise I will be here forever but I will make an effort to be better…for you. 

This is to the one who I have failed, I am sorry and I still love you.